I have to admit...

I loved this.

Sure, there were some things that were very wrong...

1- That was sooooo not the right Alice. I imagine her with a cute pixie cut and really tiny.

2 - Victoria should have been played by the fierce ginger from Quantum of Solace.
and Rosalie Hale should have been played by Olivia Wilde, I think. She was really good at being a bizzle on the OC and I think she is SO PRETTY. Totally vamp worthy.
3 - I imagined Bella's house all brown and old fashioned looking like the house I lived in when I was a nanny. With old wood floors and such... and the Cullen's home should have been white stucco.

And while Edward's hair may have been hilariously poofy and hairsprayed in some scenes, I still found myself pretty smitten with him. He was not the Eward in my mind... (I always imagine HIM) and this is Bella, in my mind's eye...
I have really specific images in my head and some of them were not brought to life in the movie, it was a little low budget and cheesy but the FEELING it gave me was right. I felt pretty swept away by the whole show; I love movies or books that do that to me.

So with that said, I give it at least one strong thumbs up. :)

Most of the time

I love being single. Exception: office parties. I swear I was the only person at the summer party without a date. And now the Christmas party. I have serious anxiety about showing up to this formal event alone. I have, for the moment, talked Chad into coming with me... but he doesn't seem sold on the idea and I don't want to invite any other dude because I feel like if I'm not dating them seriously then it's kinda making a 'statement' that I don't want to make. What to do? I guess bringing the roommate is the answer. I just hope he will come. Or maybe I could man up and not care about going there alone - I will go to a movie alone, to lunch by myself... why not a silly dinner party with my coworkers and their significant others?

I bought a print of this painting last week. I like it mostly cause I love the color of the birds... I am pretty obsessed with mustard yellow EVERYTHING lately. I'm going to hang it up in my room. I found it here.

Confusion.

Ugh. Please help me understand, because I don't.

Boy and girl dated. They dated for 3 or 4 months. Boy never kissed girl. This is not a situation that this particular girl often (if ever) found herself in, but boy brought her to numerous family functions, held her hand in public, contacted her daily, etc... Girl believed she was in some sort of a relationship, however not serious it may have been.

Girl moved away, she now lived 30 minutes from boy.

Boy dropped her like its hot.

Girl was fine. She still enjoyed his company when she saw him through mutual friends and such, but they did not maintain contact or have much to do with one another.

Ok, so clearly I am "girl" in this story. I am sick of telling the story that way, I am just going to tell it like it is. So I see this boy and a group of his friends at a group function a while back and took a liking to one of his friends. This friend is cute and fun and funny and I would be interested in spending more time with him. We began speaking on FB when we were both online. He asked for my number and suggested that we hang out. All was well, I thought. Then.... NOTHING. No call, no text, no talking to me when we are both on facebook. I was left scratching my head, wondering to what I owed this sudden loss of interest. Also wondering if I had imagined the interest to begin with, but I am not really that kind of girl, I am sure that I didn't.

Meanwhile, a friend of mine became interested in BOY from before. They met at this same group function. I told her she should date him; he is a great guy and clearly things didn't catch fire with him and I, so why not?

She talked to a few of his friends and arranged a get together for a weekend night. The cute fun friend of boy's that I had thought I may want to date was present and very inattentive and uninterested. Oh well, I thought.

As the night progressed, I began to pick up on a random display of affection from BOY. He went as far as to hold my hand, play with my hair and tickle my arm while we all sat chatting. I didn't know quite what to do, as my friend had put this whole gathering together to try and catch his eye... but I just went with it.

I am thinking that BOY must be a bit territorial and must have put the kibosh on the flirtings between his friend and I. I cannot for the life of me figure why. The chances of us dating again are very slim. It never got off the ground in the first place. Why, then, does he feel the need to keep me from cute fun friend and him from me????!

I am exhausted of men. I am content to chill with my fellow Venus dwellers and forget the whole thing, now that I have released my frustrations to the world wide web.

MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST:

Please wrap him and place him ever so gently under my tree. Even if I happen to peek before Christmas Day and see him in the box, I promise I will still act surprised when I unwrap him. And I will never get sick of him or trade him in for a newer cooler toy, even though he is clearly well used already.

Just a little thought goes a long way.

There is nothing like those friends that can sense when things are becoming a bit too much and know just how to brighten your day with the tiniest of gestures.

My company has been making some changes, many of which are causing me a lot of stress and making my job a little bit difficult and complicated. I was in the middle of trying to figure out how I am going to go about doing my job despite these changes; my head was starting to hurt and my neck was getting hot, which is what happens when I am under stress.

As I stared at my monitor my dear friend Sue popped around the corner holding the new Free People underwear and winter Anthropology catalogs that she had saved just for me. This woman has plenty of her own stress and troubles (not to mention daughters near my age that would probably have liked these little treats,) but she is always there to lend a listening ear, to tell me I'm completely right and justified in my complaints (of course!), and give me a piece of advice that makes things suddenly seem much more simple.

I doubt that she ever has the luxury of time to follow blogs but she is just one of MANY friends of this nature that I have been blessed with.

I am very grateful for them all!

Ms. McCarley

I have been anticipating the release of Erin McCarley's album since I saw her months ago with Joshua Radin. We still have to wait till January but I think it will be well worth the wait. She gave such a heartfelt performance and actually shed a few tears during one of her songs. I was lucky enough to have the chance to talk to her after her show and she was so down to earth and sweet. This is my favorite of her songs that I have been able to find online.

HCT...

My sister and me.

My sis and almost sis...

Lind, Arrienne, Mand, Me

Manda and I trying way hard to seem young. Love my BF.

This is video from youtube... this is from a different show than we saw but all is the same; just different outfits on the girls and shot from the other side of the stage.

Thanks girls for a fun night out!

Ugh.

EVERYTHING MAKES ME CRY RIGHT NOW.

Happy things, sad things, and beware: if someone looks at me wrong I have a major breakdown.

Correction -

Even THINKING about someone looking at me wrong leads me to major breakdown. I have got to pull myself together or else...

My family.

(Pictured here minus Mom and Dad)... I love them so much. My little brother will be leaving to serve a mission in Birmingham, Alabama in just a few short months. I get anxiety at the thought of living 2 years without his funny sense of humor and darling smile around my parents' house, but I know that he is going to do so well and learn so much out there on his own. He has an amazing way with people and I honestly don't think there is anyone out there who dislikes him. Love you Jed!

This pulls me out of even the worst of moods:

Click here to partake. This crazy broad is my hero!

THE HOTEL CAFE TOUR.

These ladies will all be here on Tuesday for the Hotel Cafe Tour. I have been waiting for months for this show and am giddy with excitement. I saw Meiko play in August and she was just darling; I love all the rest of their music, I bet it will be so great. Watch for me and Manda and mysista, we will all be there!

Last night

we went to a bonfire at Snowbasin. A funny mix of people to observe, fun friends, a new prospect that I would like to explore, and a roaring fire made it well worth the drive up. The fire was extra "bon," as I had my good friend Bonnie in tow. I love her!

Masquerade '08

I have made the executive decision to begin blogging. Not sure what I will say or if much of my life will make for a good read, but here's hoping.

I have never had a Halloween weekend on which I dressed up in so many different costumes. I dressed up in 4 very different get-ups and loved every minute of the weekend.

This was the product of a desperate last minute attempt to turn Chad's pirate costume from last year into something wearable for me... After a few pins and applying a corset to the outside of the shirt, I felt ok to go out (although Aftan out-sexied me by leaps and bounds).

Cassi, Me, Aftan, and I am not sure of this boy's name even though we have been on the same Powell trip...

On Halloween night we went to a HUGE party in Sugarhouse. The boys never even went into the house because Chad's costume would not allow him to make it up the small hill that led to the door (see photos below). Luckily, there were people filling the entire yard and sidewalk and street in front of the house... they had more than enough people to entertain them.

Isn't Stephan darling as a pig in pink pj's??

I was teaching him the art of the cheesy smile. He's got it down.

For work I dressed up as Meg from Family Guy. Not funny unless you are a fan of the show, in which case it was pretty funny. These pants were ridiculous - size 16 with a tiny waste. I looked a fool.

Chad spent hours sawing the backs off a pair of shoes and making holes in these boxes to stick his feet in... he even glued a pair of slippers into the insides of the boxes so that he could walk. Didn't work out so well but the costume was a HIT.

It started out as just a midget...

Then morphed into a midget cop...

And at some point became a midget SEXY cop. Funny stuff.

This is my final costume, donned for our post-Halloween party at the house of the owner of Jagged Edge Salon. I went to this one as a paper doll and the roomie was in his little person cop gear.